
I don't remember how old I was, but it was in Germany. I was visiting my grandparents for a couple of weeks, and someone lent me a kid's bike. The street that my Oma and Opa's house was on sloped upward, and ended at a little market. My father would walk to the end of the street with me, and I would glide down, all the way to the house. I did this dozens of times, slowly inching the training wheels up little by little. Eventually, I pedaled all the way down. I had a huge grin on my face, and I think my dad was laughing (which he does when he's really excited about something). It was a beautiful day, the sun reflected off of the green and yellow fence, there were bees on the cherries that had fallen from the trees. It's such a vivid memory, and I hadn't thought about it... probably since it happened.
It reminded me of something I read in WIRED a month or two ago. There is this article about a woman with a seemingly photographic memory that explains how our brains store memories vs. computers. The short of it: computers have a very organized way of storing information, and it's instantly accessible at all times. It looks something like this:

And the brain is really messy about this whole process, which resembles something like this:

Here is the article text:
On a computer, every single bit of information is stored at a specific location, from which it can always be retrieved. Human recall is hit or miss. Neuroscientific research tells us that our brains don't use a fixed-address system, and memories tend to overlap, combine, and disappear for reasons no one yet understands.This makes human memory sound potentially a pain in the neck, but it's really kind of awesome. Yeah, I wish there were a way to bring up perfect memories that I haven't thought about in a while. But with this "imperfect" way of storing, the brain actually becomes an enabler of cognitive easter eggs. Throughout life, there are little land mines that will trigger pleasant memories without warning that for years had been tucked away somewhere unreachable. Can't wait for my next one.
The one thing we do know is rather vague: Memories live in the hippocampus and the prefrontal cortex. After that, the entire question of how memory works is up for grabs. For example, where precisely in the hippocampus (or prefrontal cortex) is my memory of reading Kurt Vonnegut for the first time? If I try to summon that experience, I am likely to wind up with a blur—a half dozen indistinct recollections. And no brain-scan technology will help me bring it into better focus.

What are some of your recently triggered memories that you had forgotten about for a long time? What triggered them?
Hey Johanna,
ReplyDeleteI just read and blogged about a NYTimes article that discusses, among other things, the role of music in treating Alzheimer's patients to help them bring back their memories.
It turns out that music memory is better preserved than verbal memory, so even after an Alzheimer sufferer has forgotten just about everything in their past, they're still able to retrieve memories through associations with music.
Dennis is correct - my sister studied Music Therapy in college, and one of her jobs after graduating was working with Alzheimer patients. She would play them music from when they were in their 20's and 30's, and it would induce vivid memories - things they couldn't ever recall otherwise.
ReplyDeleteThough, has far as senses go with triggering memory, it seems smell is the most effective. While there are a lot of common smells, you often connect certain ones with specific events. For me, rain in the fall always triggers memories of my early college years - I can't for the life of me explain why, though.
My latest triggered memory, however, was because of the Cosby Show (in combination with all the Mothers Day commercials) - I used to sit with my mom and watch it in the evening, it's one of my better childhood memories.
The music x memory thing is truly heartwarming, thank you both.
ReplyDeleteMark – yes about smell! I think it's because the memory part of the brain (hippocampus?) is right next to the olfactory bulb. In fact, I think they are touching. I once started writing a piece on my old web site about different smells that evoked memories in me, and it was so strong that I couldn't finish it.
Johanna, when I was small, my mother used to have those plastic covers for our dinner table. I remember hating them because they often end up smell very bad in the end after all the food spilled on them and whatnot.
ReplyDeletePeople don't seem to use them anymore these days, until I went back to our hometown to a store that was nearly 60 years old and they still have those plastic covers in rolls and sold in meters. It must have been ages since I last saw them.
This post is very brilliant!
Thanks Zana! Did seeing them in the store bring back a pleasant memory of "those days," even though you hated the covers?
ReplyDeleteheya, I have lived a life of fleeting memories, feeling like the length of my normal memories looks like the wake of a boat; I estimate its about 4-6 years long, and then things are gone (unless triggered like you mentioned and then its only for a snapshot in time, but with incredible detail like what peeps were wearing, etc).
ReplyDeleteSo I've always been forgetful, and relied on close friends and family since childhood to trigger things, tell the stories, etc. And this year I realised that people tell stories a lot, as part of socialising, and spending time. I never. Not of memories but of things that happened in the past 2 days or so.
But to answer the question, a friend from high school, who i haven't seen in over a decade was in town for the weekend. First night, having drinks, she mentions a mutual friend, and as soon as she said the name and that he likes movies I was hit with the most vivid memory of the day this guy pulled me aside in like 9th grade and said: "You HAVE to watch Shawshank redemption, I'm bringing you the tape tomorrow". And really since that time I became the movie watching fiend I am.
roli
Fascinating, Roli. Thanks for sharing. I read somewhere once that memories are never truly lost, they're just shoved to the back of your subconscious, waiting. Guess the Shawshank memory (I love that movie too, by the way, I cry at the end every time) is an example of that!
ReplyDeletewell i believe that Jo, and I seen enough on discovery chan to illustrate that the way our brains handle processing (all that stuff about not seeing things with fresh eyes to not overload, our brains "filling in missing bits" basically making assumptions on "reality" which create our perception) means that memories cant be front of mind unless you train your brain to work that way...
ReplyDeletewhich leads me to something I omitted before to not sound like a douche, but was my leading theory as I noticed the difference between myself an people around me -- specifically dealing with everyone remembering so much and me not so much. That is, I know I like to look forward, and I used to be super spontaneous (leading to ma nickname) before my current more boring state, and so I jsut thought my brain is trained on the desert mirage called the future. Some of it is planning, some of it is guessing whats next and playing the game of seeing what happens. In the end I figured the reason I didn't have easy recall was not because I didn't care or pay attention (mom's original theory when I was a young teen), but rather because I focused too much on "next" I didn't re-reflect on what passed. I would try and learn fmor stuff that happened, but only immediately, then file it away.
Not to derail any further the comments but maybe its interesting to know that I believe people's personalities, confidence, fears and self image is based alot on what we have already done, our experiences. That makes sense right? seems logical at least. But the extent of it became clear when I realised that if you don't have those reminders around you regularly of who you are, what you have done (whether through people or own memories) then its actually possible you can lose a great deal of what makes you who you are - i.e: your personality, culture, drive, whatever
ok promise I wont OT like this again
roli
OT all you want! ha.
ReplyDelete"maybe its interesting to know that I believe people's personalities, confidence, fears and self image is based alot on what we have already done, our experiences." – definitely agree. The aggregation of life experiences ladders up to a gestalt of one's sense of self, I think.
And, I don't think your theory about why you used to forget things is douchey at all. Seems like it could logically make sense. Spending less cognitive resources on memories that make up your past because you're too focused on what's next. Hmmmmmm.
The post and threads reminded me of a Penguin pocket book called Forgetting Things by Sigmund Freud.
ReplyDeleteJo, what you said it true. We never really forget things, just that it's parked somewhere in the unconscious. One of the reason is denial and the reluctance to store bad memories in our mind. This post triggered my memory of reading that paragraph in the book, which subsequently brings me back to memories of a bad breakup and how I couldn't remember significant events in that relationship.
Have you heard of this saying? "it's not what that person says that makes you remember them. It's how the person makes you feel. Again reinforcing the deepest layer of conscious, unlike any computer storage :=)
I haven't heard the saying, but I absolutely agree with it. Thanks for sharing your memory; I realized a couple of days after writing this that I completely believe it can happen with not-so-lovely, repressed memories as well.
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